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Christmas

Expectations and guilt, or celebration of love and family? What do you do when you want it to be one thing, but it’s not on the outside. The inner reality doesn’t match the inner longing. Just work on getting rid of the longing? Change the longing by placing a pessimistic view on top of it, clouding it all so even what is there actually gets obscured?  No. Sitting in whatever it is, grateful that you get to be a part of it all for one more year. Bringing your own unique style of interacting with the world.

[Autosaved] Fractals

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Let’s start with this. What are they? Comment below. Who am I talking to? I’m talking to you. The reader. I am asking you to interact with me online through my comments section. I’d love it if you would comment below telling me the definition of fractals. I have not looked it up, but I am delegating it to you if you want to do it. Here is a reason you should do it: you will be an honorary participant of my blog. The first prize goes to my sister. She is now officially the first person to interact with me through my blog, so she gets the “Honraray Participant” award. This award goes to her not as a monetary award, but as a self-serving? capitalistic? move of promoting her blog post right here with the hyperlink:     Next topic:  “The Right Way”. How do you know when you’ve found it? Example: Making coffee. I make good coffee. It’s strong in flavor and caffeine. I love it right when I wake up, the coffee maker begins brewing at 4:30 after the night crew washed out the previ...

[Autosaved] Moon

Think of the Wolf Moon as the deep-winter checkpoint: resources are low, discipline matters, and you rely on your pack. Culturally, Horse years are about motion over contemplation—you don’t over-plan, you run. This pairing creates an interesting tension: Wolf Moon: endure, assess, stay loyal, survive the winter Horse Year: move, break free, travel, act decisively Together, they suggest: “Move—but don’t abandon the pack.” Momentum guided by loyalty and clarity. If the Horse is speed, the Wolf Moon is discipline.

Filling

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What’s inside the middle?

Show you care.

Effort before they know. I tend to have feelings of care…? Not sure what that means, but I don’t DO anything about it. I do not act. I Imagine and think. I live in a world of potential action, keeping me in a good mood, imagining the best outcomes, but reality doesnt always match. I could DO more. Act. Do. Even when uncomfortable. Even when you’re not sure how things will work out. Be ok with the uncertainty and the fact that unknown things will come your way;

Fog and Sun

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Sunday fog. Warm. Cold. Wind. Chaos. Cozy order. ChatGPT 5.2 is Agent mode, deeper thinking. I’m in deep, but these words are my output, even though I am just parroting talking points in some ways. Is it original. My cat sitting on the sink box is not generated by AI. Let the tasks begin. Wipe out the cupboards. Then use cardboard to make a template.  Nevermind. Abandon templates, just wipe out and put items in. Least frequent use goes furthest in back. Taking a break feels counterproductive. But I did it. So now let’s go be productive on the counters. So clever.

Still Waters

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Systems thinking. Can you have Stillwaters of the mind when you are constantly brainstorming and examining systems in your head? I’ve been following primary design company, examining AI and the sesame systems building the Miles and Maya models. I just got invited to a live that he started because I actually turned on his notifications to be alerted when he goes live.  I think this was it I started the car project for day three. The first two videos I posted on my YouTube site. One was regular format, one was vertical and under two minutes, so it uploaded as a short. For the oil housing the next step is going to be removing it and it’s going to require that. I be extremely careful with exactly which bolt I put where but that shouldn’t be too difficult. I also have to remove a hose with a clamp on it and it’s a one time clamp so it will break and I’ll have to replace it but I did already buysome clamps. I just don’t know exactly where I put them so I have an oil drain.  Some cla...