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Responsibly working on what feels right, and being right about the action. Acting right. Right action. Aligned. Doing the full process. I am so practical and nuanced that I am reprioritizing all the time, but it’s making me tired. Just breathe and flow. This constant re-assessment is draining me.  From ChatGPT: In Tao Te Ching #2 (often translated differently depending on the edition), the phrase “act without presumption” points to the Taoist principle of wu wei (無為) — usually translated as “non-action” or “effortless action.” To “act without presumption” means: Do without arrogance or self-importance. Don’t assume your actions are the ultimate cause of outcomes. The Tao teaches that results arise naturally when we’re aligned with the flow of life, not when we force them through ego or pride. Act without claiming ownership. You may plant seeds, but the growth doesn’t belong to you. Lao Tzu often says the sage “acts but does not possess; accomplishes but takes no credit.” A...

I am not simple. I am aware. I am open, but as I bring in ideas, and store them, the framework within me grows. Feelings and memories get stored , my brain lies to me (so I’ve heard)- but it’s more like the brain needs to fill in gaps because there is no way it can absorb and process everything. My wife is listening to yacht rock as she gets ready for going to work today. I have the day off of work, but I have a lot of work lined up to do. I do best when I take the time to organize my thoughts into my daily structure. My daily structure is the patterns of my life that are repetitious. It starts with the  morning thoughts, then a description of my Physical Health data-namely sleep and water. Then money, then a prompt to review my reminders and calendar.Then there is space for any incoming thoughts into an Eisenhower Matrix, followed by the Mood Meter. Finally there is a Priority Indicator to line up my day. “Trust yourself to be open to God’s inspiration for your course direction, e...

Changing personality? INFP to INFJ? How? Why? Chat GPT gave me a reflective exercise to examine this possible change. When do I feel deeply moved to act? When It feels right based on my body’s energy level for the task. Before that, checking in with myself and bringing my aweareness between my eyebrows, letting all the possible actions I could do race through my mid. Sometimes using a priority indicator to help analyze and line up the priorities of the day using logistical and systems thinking, plus the algorithmic nature of the priority indicator.  On a recent decision, did I wait for inner alightnment or plan based on likely outcomes for others? Both. Knowing that my inner alignment would happen if I considered others, I constantly switch between the two, with each thought of others being processed by my feeling to see how or where there is friction. How have my habits evolved? What new responsibilities make structure feel empowering? I use structured Daily Action Plans and calen...

Grow up. Stop that. Conform. Do better.  It’s not that you are a bad person, it’s that you are not contributing to the relationship and ultimately the community or society. The little head wag means I’m innocent and I love you, love me back, give me what I want and take care of my needs. That’s an incorrect assumption. Developmental considerations are important, and growing up is hard. I also have this time that just opened up, and part of me has the desire to work on things, but I am also overwhelmed and don’t know if I have the focus and stamina to be able to sit and work on things. Do better! But I’m tired! But what you have done is not good enough, and you should fix that. Do better! Make improvements, you SHOULD be better! “Children, and especially babies, are considered the treasures of the whole clan. In one tribal culture, a newborn baby spends its first six weeks with just its parents and immediate family to allow close bonding. During that time, the whole tribe is involve...

There is no need to rush. Frantic- trying to keep up with all of the current swirls. They can just float on by. I COULD reach out and interrupt the flow, changing a bit of this or that, and from time to time I do. I could also write about what I see, and how I see it, and from time to time I do. So I’ll keep doing my exercises, drinking water, and try to keep a pleasant disposition in the world. Not because I have to, but because it’s how I want to be.  “Someone stole the hubcaps!” “Is that right?” Then the people go about their day solving their problems. Rain in the forecast. Difficult conversations as well. Losing contact with people that were once in close swirls is coming. Gaining new people into the mix is coming too. Gain, loss, new and uncomfortable, new and comfortable, old and comfortable, old and uncomfortable. Make sense or let it stay not understood. Experience the mystery unfold. A song from yesterday: Soup from today:

Bullshitting as a way to see how people can handle themselves. To test them. I don’t usually like that, but the bus driver today wanted to mess with a bus rider, and wanted me to get in on it. The rider quickly got it and called us out. I just think it’s a clumsy way to interact, but to keep the bus driver thinking highly of me, I went along with it. Or at least to not think lower of me. Social prowess, sarcasm, bullshit. It’s annoying. Listened again up to 33:00 Patterns of life are cyclical. All different, yet the same- being more in the process. Moving from lack to being through desire. A choice, a consciousness. But too much too fast can stop the expansion, and things fold in on themselves, doing the same pattern over and over; in safety. Reaching out is scary.

The bus is late. Rare occasion. Then a switch, they called an audible on the bus- bus not marked but it is my bus. Stress at transportation. Always check your calendar, clarify overlaps. Emergencies arise when not calmly aware of upcoming events. Also with mechanical failures. It helps to be ready for emergencies. Prepared, as they say. Speaking of preparing:

Rules. Why have them? Internal locus of control. Why is it better than external? I asked ChatGPT and  here is the answer. It’s nice when unexpected time opens up. Enjoy that when it happens.  Busy day, with pockets of quiet time. It pays to be present, responding to what arises, then letting it go. Like when this happens:

It’s a foggy, cold day, but I’m sweating from riding my bike quickly to make it to the bus stop on time. In through the nose, out through the mouth is the goal, but the nose is too small a passageway for the amount of air I need. Lights turn red so I scan the scene and pretend I’m turning right, lying to the cars. Then I jaywalk behind them and continue on my original path. I make it on time with a few minutes to spare. The driver points out a stray dog. After looking at it for a minute, I say “Scary.” He mumbles something I can’t understand but I don’t clarify, I just sit down. People might not be in alignment with my thoughts, but I don’t like dogs. They keep going and don’t back down, I don’t want this to be a therapy session though. I have more observations to make. Mornings are slowing down as I get older. Also as I ease into the day, taking things as they come and not getting too worked up. What is creeping through the fog? What will I miss? What will be revealed?  Metal and ...

 I have compassion for people who are less fortunate than me, but today there is a lady trying to get on the bus who is being told that the drivers have noticed that she is starting to try to bring on more bags than normal, to the point of being too much. They’ll authorize allowing the driver to do this trip, but be aware in the future that the answer may be no. Disappointment takes over her body, head droops down. Our things. The stuff we carry and hold on to. What is important? What is necessary? We could categorize it all. We are driven to do, to have, to identify with. Avarice and hoarding. Why is she lugging around the luggage?🧳  What do I lug around? I I started listening to this The first 2 minutes have a lot of words I need to look up. Basically, it’s a mystery. Ontophenomenology for example.  Ukulele practice